It is pouring heavily right now, just when the clock strikes midnight. Elis is lying down on her bed, looking out at the window thinking about her family situation and missing her dad.

Just before sleeping, Elis mum spoke to her regarding the housing loan that was not paid since many years back and now the government wants to take it back. None of Elis's parents have any money in their CPF account to settle the payment for the house and now that Ant isnt back home at all, Dor had no idea how to settle that whole lump sum of money in order to prevent the authorities to take the flat back.

-Before Sleeping-

Dor: "Hey girl, I really have no idea how should we do in order to salvage the situation.. I do not want to give up the flat too cause we've been here for 10 years and I really cant bear to leave this place. Let's rent our rooms out shall we? Or if there is no choice, we would have to sell this EA flat and get a 1-room flat instead."

Elis: "Yea we'll rent it out then, we dont have much choice anyway. I'll settle it? I have quite a number of frens whom can help out i guess. Let me go think of a way."

Dor: "Yea sure, meanwhile i'll get my niece to get us tenants if he could as well, since he's working as a housing agent. But shit sia, i want no China woman in the house."

Elis: "Hey mom? Like seriously, if we dont have a choice? We gotta take them in as well...."

Dor: "hm. Lets see how it goes la. "

-End of playback-

Elis have been thinking.. Pondering over the things she have done, the money she have wasted and the time she have wasted.. Why isnt she more smart to get big bucks back right now so her mom can retire? She is like 50 this year and yet have to slog in order for her 3 kids to grow up well and strong enough for the society. Not to mention, where the fuck is her father.

Throughout her 20 years of life, almost 6-8 yrs her father was missing in it. She do not know what the heck is going on but still, he was not present most of the time. Even if he was around, she wouldn't even classify it as happy moments or killable memories.

"How can someone like that live in the world? Where exactly is their sense of responsibility? What kind of a guy, can love his wife so much before so as to marry her and bear kids with her but in the end, still not around to share the burden, the pain of growing those kids up. How selfish and mindless can such guy be?" Elis thought.

-Down ringtone-

Elis startled.

"Hello?"

"Hey darling, are you aslp yet?"

"No dear, gimme a moment." -Step out of the room-

"Hey dear, Wats up?"

"Neh, been missing you. Plus i couldnt sleep so I thought the same might be for you too."

"Yea, I cant sleep. Not at the moment i guess."

"Wassup baby, something's on ur mind?"

"Yea. Kind of. Hey dear, ask you.. What would happen if i leave you someday due to illness, or say i'm dead?"

"Honestly speaking.. I would be sad definately for a long period of time.. But i guess at the end of it, i'll still need to move on in life isnt it? Why the random question? You thinking of leaving me?"

"Hell no baby. Haha. O wells, thats all i needed to know. I guess i can sleep right well now :) So no worries. Nthg else is on my mind :)"

"Sure?"

"Very sure dear! :) you go get some rest early yea? I'm kinda tired now so i'l turn in?"

"Alrights. Good night baby. Swt dreams"

"Good night"

-Hangs up-

Elis thought over what her 9-months old boyfriend said and couldnt help but felt heartache.

Elis determined to be serious over this relationship she had with Mr. A after so many of topsy turvey kick and throw relationships. For once, she decided to settle down and see if something different would happen in her life. She had a crush on Mr. A since they were in the same class in the same module together. Mr. A was once in the same pri sch as her but they didnt know each other then. He was also one of Elis's suitor's best friend during Secondary sch and they met before, but didnt know each other then. & now, God decided to put them in the same school, same course and now.. Same class.

Her r/s with Mr. A is pretty stable now. Other than the fact that they do not dare to quarrel, so when they quarrel (Just last mth), it seemed pretty serious. Elis was the first to had a crush on Mr. A with Mr. A slowly beginning to fall for her. However, As much as Elis loved him. There are still many answers in her heart. Some of which, she just chose to kept quiet about it cuz it doesnt matter anymore.